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something randomly just clicks in your head and
all you can think of is
how he smelled & those gorgeous brown eyes.
I’m not talking about an ex.
no resentment issues here.
He was just a guy that was kinda special to me.
He knew me. The REAL me.
Who I was & who I had been.
Sexy me. Ugly me. Fat me. Afraid me. Fragile me. Strong me.
He never judged me and when everybody left,
he stayed.
That genuine ” he wants to sit on a couch in New York City with me…” feeling.
It’s been awhile.
Time has passed.
We’ve grown up and with that,
I’m pretty sure we’ve both changed a whole lot — I know I sure have.
We had a good run.
No beef or I-hate-you’s.
I really honestly can’t even remember the reason 
we aren’t in each other’s lives anymore.
Or if there even is a reason.
I guess today I’ve just been thinking about what we had
& what a great opportunity we both missed out on.

Don’t hold your breath & wait for things to happen.
If you love someone, let them know how special they are to you.
You may never get a second chance.